This will truly be a quick one! Was sitting here this morning and time got away from me because my meditating time took a new form ... love how the Spirit is able to work when my brain has not yet come fully awake.
Looking at my little tree and beautiful nativity scene, I was meditating on love and became aware of what a HUGE word love is and how sometimes reflecting on this little four letter word can 'feel' as though I have this humungus blob of jello sitting in my hands! This blob of love-jello was my awareness of how many magnificent forms of love I have had in my life as well as, as all we humans have had, of all the different experiences of confusions, hurts and anxieties that are also a part of the experience of loving.
So, I was sitting here in the quiet of the morning with my huge shimmering blob of love, speckled with faces, places, times of living and experiences in my lap. I was also aware as I sat with a lap of love-jello, that Source of Love was the 'substance' holding all my experiences together into this big wobbly blob . Got to tell you that this love-jello image was a little odd for so early in the morning but just as I was beginning to wonder about it, the words of Meister Eckhart flowed through my mind: "if the only prayer you ever pray is thank you, that is enough." And I began to breathe those two little words.
In and out, slowly and deliberately I breathed the words thank you, over and over and they began to flow through me. My body began to relax. My brain began to feel a subtle glow as thank you flowed in and out of my breath. The word 'love' - that big blob of my experiences of living that had been sitting in my lap - became both very large and very small in the form of the words 'thank you.' As I continued to breathe those two little words, one by one persons I love came into my mind. Each by each I felt 'love' simply as thank you for the fact of their existence in my life. As faces came into view and I breathed those two words in and out with my breath and I felt new words form from the simple thank you: thank you for the beauty of You and your love within ________. Thank you for Your vision of beauty forming as the unique self, the unique Being of _____________. One after another faces appeared and slowly as I breathed the words thank you with each, I saw their Being as a glorious crystal - a snowflake of uniqueness shimmering with the Beauty of the Source of Love within each.
This experience of deliberate 'thinking' thank you lasted only about ten minutes or so yet when I finished {it just sort of finished itself actually} I simply sat completely relaxed. And then I began thinking about being committed to writing the blog and then I looked at the clock and the minutes had ticked away - how can this be! I felt, and began to wonder how I would accomplish my commitment within the time I had left. And then it hit me: just say thank you for your commitment and see what happens.
What you have just read is what happened as my response to glancing at the clock. I just now looked at the clock again and I'm fine in terms of having enough time to eat a bit of breakfast and wander through the process of getting ready and then be to work on time. And so I just had another thought; maybe the answer to our very human cry of 'how can this be?!?' is very simply those two little words, thank you. Maybe Meister Eckhart's words contain a very powerful truth; that our faith; our trust that there is a Great Energy of Love and Creation within each and all is best expressed by a simple thank you. Maybe thank you is the way I am able to express appreciation for this God of Love within all of life while simultaneous reassuring myself that this energy of love is at work even when I do not understand what is happening.
Maybe Meister Eckhart was telling us that love, that humungus word of feelings and experiences, can be best expressed - and lived - by those two little words: Thank You.
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